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Hashtag Single: Ampalaya No More
Sa mga ateng bigo, nagmamartyr-martyran at sa mga girlalooong umaasa pang dumating ang araw na magiging crush din sila ng crush nila. Saan ka ba dyan? Well... well... well... Magwish nalang tayo sa wishing well. Sasamahan kita, magwiwish din ako. Anyway, tapos na naman ang Pasko pero nagyeyelong lamig parin and hatid ng hangin kaya't heto na naman ako't nagbabalik para maghanap ng karamay. Single ka? Single din ako! Apir! Damay- damay na 'to!! Nahahagip na ng radar ko ang pagiging ampalaya mo, ate! Sabi nga nila, ang Pebrero, para sa mga may malalamig na gabi ay Single Awareness Month. Malapit kana ulit maaware. Swear!
Flowers here. Flowers there. Flowers everywhere. Sana allergic ka nalang para keri lang na hanggang tingin ka nalang. Chocolates? Meron nyan sa ref nyo. Bilis, hanap kana ngayon! Teddy Bears? Uso pa ba yun? Giant U pillow nalang o, para masarap ang tulog. Chos! Kidding aside, sinong niloloko mo? If I know, deep inside hoping ka parin na may magbigay sayo ng mga yun ngayong darating na Araw ng mga Puso. At mas happy kung galing sa inaasam- asam mong boylet. Pero kung hindi naman, never mind at tanggapin mo nalang din. Duh! Huwag ka nang masyadong choosy ate, i-instagram mo nalang with #Valentines, #FlowersxChocolates #HeartsMonth #Sweet #butyougottolovemeharder hahaha etc. etc. Kung wala naman, keribels lang yan! Smile lang kasi beautiful ka parin.
Alam kong isa rin ito sa mga panahon na natatanong mo kung bakit hindi pa siya dumadating, kung bakit hindi pa pinagtatagpo ang mga landas ninyo. Hay, ang love nga naman. Pero di mo kailangang mag-inarte at ngumawa dahil single ka padin. Wala ka mang makakadate na special someone...don't you worry, pretty! I listed 7 things (oo seven lang paki mo, basahin mo nalang.) na pwede mong gawin ngayong darating na Valentine's Day/ Heart's Month/ Single Awareness Month (Paulit-ulit??). Dahil "It doesn't mean you're lonely when you're alone."
1.) Magliwaliw with friends.
Gamitin na ang unlicall at unlitext at tipunin na ang mga kaibigan mong miyembro ng SMP (Samahan ng Malalamig ang Pebrero). Kesa mag-hibernate kayo at namnamin ang lamig ng pagiging single, bakit hindi nalang kayo magsama-sama at painitin ang supposed- to-be-lonely-nights ninyo sa pamamagitan ng maiinit nyong halakhakan? Makigulo sa mga couples na nagdedate o magbilang ng mga ate at kuyang magkaHHWW. Mas madami, mas maingay, mas masaya! Sabay sabay ninyong ipagdiwang ang pagiging malaya ninyo.
2.) Makipagdate kay boy-space-friend.
Pwede nang psuedo-bf si boybff. Hindi man kayo talo o may lihim na malisya sa isa't isa masusurvive mo na ang Heart's Month with tagong kiligness and a happy heart. Makakatipid kapa dahil malaki ang chance na libre. Kung hindi, bigwasan mo! Hindi yan makaka-hindi.
3.) Ipamper ang sarili with girl friend.
Time na ulit para magsama ang mga kikay! Matagal tagal na ba kayong hindi nagkikita? Mga 5 days? Miss niyo na ang isa't isa? Hiramin mo na siya sa jowa niya kahit isang araw lang. duh, kung taun-taon naman silang magkasama tuwing Valentines, ipagdadamot ka pa ba niya sa bff mo? I'm sure sawang sawa nayan sa isa't isa. Kaya ayain mo na si bru for a relaxing body massage, facial, mani-pedi o eyelash extension. (Earth calling *jowa ni bff*. Pahiram muna ako ng kaibigan ko ha.)
4.) Itreat ang Family.
Kung wala ka namang malalandi sa araw ng mga puso at pinili ng mga kaibigan mong magmukmok, keri lang! Nandyan naman ang pamilya mo para damayan ka. Naiintindihan nila ang pinagdadaanan mo kung ikaw nalang ang may zero lovelife sa pamilya nyo. Kaya dahil dyan, ilibre mo nalang sila ng lunch or dinner kesa magdrama ka dyan. Matutuwa pa sila. Promise!
5.) Magpakitang gilas kay boss.
Wala kang pasok? Pero wala ka rin namang date. Sus, keri lang yan. Mag OT ka para naman matapus-tapos ang mga kailangang tapusin sa opisina. May pasok? Mag OT ka parin! Pustahan tayo makakalimutan mo kung anong araw na sa dami ng nirurush mong papers. Pagdating mo sa bahay pagoda na ang beauty mo kaya itutulog mo nalang. Pag-gising mo Feb 15 na! diba? Baka maging masipag ka pa sa paningin ng boss mo!
6.) Maging kapaki-pakinabang.
Aside from a surprise treat for your family, pwede mo ring isurprise ang mga taong kailangan ng pagkalinga ng pwede nilang ituring na pamilya. You and your friends (and family) can organize an event sa mga orphanages or home for the aged. Pwede ding magvolunteer sa mga NGO's. Malay mo, isang way na pala yan para makilala mo si Mr. Right na mahilig magturn left. hihihi Hindi kailangan na hintayin mo pa ang Pasko para magshare ng love. Kaya yang love na iyan sa puso mo para sa taong hindi naman kayang suklian iyan, ibahagi mo nalang sa mga taong kahit hindi mo kakilala ay alam mong makakaappreciate nito.
7.) Makipagdate kay *insert your name here*
Imbes na maging ampalayers at magbitter-biteran, why not celebrate being with your one and only "self". Celebrate the freedom of being single. Magsimba, manuod ng sine at kaya kumain ng ice cream. O kaya itry na ang mga bagay na dati mo pang gustong gawin. Don't limit your capabilities dahil flying solo ka. Mas masarap lumipad ng walang pumipigil sayo at darating din ang tamang araw na sasabayan ka niyang lumipad (kung sino man siya!). But for now, fly and enjoy your freedom.
There you go! There are so many ways to beat all the drama's and Valentine's Day Blues. Hindi kailangang damdamin ang pagiging single mo, kung mag-isa ka sa VDay. Kasi hindi ka nag-iisa, marami tayo! hahaha Happy Feb-ibig, everyone! :*
Sunday, November 23, 2014
To The Man Who Can't Love Me Back
I never thought I would feel this way about you. It was just an ordinary encounter, one morning, out of my not-so-ordinary-days. I haven't had a vision that this would happen because I knew that I've already gone numb with all the pain which shattered my heart into tiny pieces. My eyes were sick of seeing the same old view and finally got tired of drying the tears which kept on falling that only my bedroom walls have witnessed. I let the hurt fly with the love once I've found when I realized I had enough.
I spent my days stitching the wounds of my past as I embraced loving myself a lot more. I gave my life another chance to breathe. And then you happened. It wasn't a love at first sight kind of thing. It just came to the moment where I felt changes on how my heart beats every time you've crossed my mind and butterflies would go wild, which is really not a good combination! As what I'm good at, I-G-N-O-R-I-N-G those funny feelings kept me normal, 'cause I plainly have to be normal, firm and alive. Not until the urge to just have a glance of you everyday made me realize that I probably have feelings for you and I couldn't let this budding love take over my actions.
Your stories made me escape from everything that was bothering me. I've found comfort in your laughter on my struggling hours. And as much as I wanted to meet those brown eyes, I just couldn't because I might end up hurting myself. It was ironic how things unfolded right in front of me and I needed to compose myself. I tell you, it was really like I was struck by lightning when you told me you love her, it felt weird to keep my head high when my hope was burning. I wanted to feel icy cold. And it was even crazy weird how everything got intertwined and I still had to smile.
I had to keep "me" on track. I didn't want to cause damage on what we've got and I wanted to blame myself for my heart started it all. I had to control my brain not to rely on you anymore because even I never admitted it, the fact that you wouldn't be around one day, gave me a strange feeling of fear and regret...But I was grateful that you taught me how face this, not brave enough to endure the pain though, but still brave to stand and handle things maturely.
Love,
The woman who always keeps a smile on her face
I spent my days stitching the wounds of my past as I embraced loving myself a lot more. I gave my life another chance to breathe. And then you happened. It wasn't a love at first sight kind of thing. It just came to the moment where I felt changes on how my heart beats every time you've crossed my mind and butterflies would go wild, which is really not a good combination! As what I'm good at, I-G-N-O-R-I-N-G those funny feelings kept me normal, 'cause I plainly have to be normal, firm and alive. Not until the urge to just have a glance of you everyday made me realize that I probably have feelings for you and I couldn't let this budding love take over my actions.
Your stories made me escape from everything that was bothering me. I've found comfort in your laughter on my struggling hours. And as much as I wanted to meet those brown eyes, I just couldn't because I might end up hurting myself. It was ironic how things unfolded right in front of me and I needed to compose myself. I tell you, it was really like I was struck by lightning when you told me you love her, it felt weird to keep my head high when my hope was burning. I wanted to feel icy cold. And it was even crazy weird how everything got intertwined and I still had to smile.
I had to keep "me" on track. I didn't want to cause damage on what we've got and I wanted to blame myself for my heart started it all. I had to control my brain not to rely on you anymore because even I never admitted it, the fact that you wouldn't be around one day, gave me a strange feeling of fear and regret...But I was grateful that you taught me how face this, not brave enough to endure the pain though, but still brave to stand and handle things maturely.
Love,
The woman who always keeps a smile on her face
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Ang Traydor Kong Puso
Nandyan kana naman...
tinutukso tukso ang aking puso...
Ilang ulit nabang iniiwasan ka, di na natuto.
Yung totoo? How many times do you have to convince yourself that there is a chance for the both of you but not in this lifetime? Ilang beses mo na bang sinabi sa sarili mo na tama na, Kakalimutan mo na siya...pero likod palang niya, ALAM NA! You tried to ignore the erratic beating of your heart everytime he's around. You still couldn't be yourself ever if you try to 'cause you're too conscious. Even afraid of committing a little bit of mistake kasi bawas ganda points! How many times did you try convincing yourself that you don't love him? That this is ONLY some kind of admiration because he's just a good person (labas sa ilong!), nothing more. At humahanap kana ng anything na ikakaturn off mo. (na kahit na anong makita mo, tanggap mo!)
You kept your distance. You accepted the fact that you aren't his kind of girl. "Overqualified kasi ako." pampalubag loob mo nalang sa sarili mo dahil ang totoo minsan nanliliit kana at tinatanong kung ano bang mali sayo. Alam mong hindi ka niya gusto at umuusok ang ilong mo kapag tinuturing ka niyang parang bata. Sa kabila ng lahat ng iyon, dumating sa puntong sinabi mong "wala na akong nararamdaman para sa kanya. As in wala na." Hmmmm...wala na. Pero hindi ka pinaniniwalaan ng mga tao sa paligid mo. Bakit? Alam mong okay kana eh, dumating na ang pagkakataon na nakakausap mo na siya. You can now able to meet his gaze and do your thing without any inhibitions. Oh, that feeling! You lived your life as if you were deaf both ears, to the whispers of your heart, numb from the unknown pain. You let yourself not to be drowned for he's not willing to save you. But at the end of the day, you realized that it wasn't all easy, denying this and that...pretending like you don't care. Sometimes it's hard to act as if you don't see anything and most of the times it's hard to hide that you're really hurting inside.
*sigh*... There are times when you think of going somewhere far but is it all worth it? Ang umiwas? Ang lumayo? Is it right to give up one of your greatest dreams just to get rid of the pain you feel every time you meet him? 'Cause you know, you're going nowhere. Minsan nakakasama ng loob na nasa harap kalang niya ngunit parang wala siyang nakikita. So, to save your pride, you act as if nothing's wrong when you know there is. Trinatraydor ka na naman ng puso mo. You are trying to control your feelings but it keeps on growing. You keep on walking away when all you want to do is to embrace it. Pilit mong tinatakasan ang isang bagay na alam mong mahirap nang tanggalin sa sistema mo. Dumadating din sa puntong suko kana pero bakit hindi ang puso? You can't do anything though it's not a hopeless nor helpless case. It's just that your feet keep on running and running only to find out you're still leading to him. And the thing you've got to do is to give in....
Minsan ang hirap talaga na kahit anong pilit mong lumayo at hindi ka sangayunan ng puso mo, babalik at babalik ka parin sa kung ano o sino ang itinitibok nito. Ano ba ang magagawa mo? Kaya mo bang magpatuloy sa pagiwas kung ito na mismo ang trumatraydor sayo?
tinutukso tukso ang aking puso...
Ilang ulit nabang iniiwasan ka, di na natuto.
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| When it comes to you, I don't know just what to say... don't know how to act. I simply want to run and breathe. -destiny004 |
You kept your distance. You accepted the fact that you aren't his kind of girl. "Overqualified kasi ako." pampalubag loob mo nalang sa sarili mo dahil ang totoo minsan nanliliit kana at tinatanong kung ano bang mali sayo. Alam mong hindi ka niya gusto at umuusok ang ilong mo kapag tinuturing ka niyang parang bata. Sa kabila ng lahat ng iyon, dumating sa puntong sinabi mong "wala na akong nararamdaman para sa kanya. As in wala na." Hmmmm...wala na. Pero hindi ka pinaniniwalaan ng mga tao sa paligid mo. Bakit? Alam mong okay kana eh, dumating na ang pagkakataon na nakakausap mo na siya. You can now able to meet his gaze and do your thing without any inhibitions. Oh, that feeling! You lived your life as if you were deaf both ears, to the whispers of your heart, numb from the unknown pain. You let yourself not to be drowned for he's not willing to save you. But at the end of the day, you realized that it wasn't all easy, denying this and that...pretending like you don't care. Sometimes it's hard to act as if you don't see anything and most of the times it's hard to hide that you're really hurting inside.
*sigh*... There are times when you think of going somewhere far but is it all worth it? Ang umiwas? Ang lumayo? Is it right to give up one of your greatest dreams just to get rid of the pain you feel every time you meet him? 'Cause you know, you're going nowhere. Minsan nakakasama ng loob na nasa harap kalang niya ngunit parang wala siyang nakikita. So, to save your pride, you act as if nothing's wrong when you know there is. Trinatraydor ka na naman ng puso mo. You are trying to control your feelings but it keeps on growing. You keep on walking away when all you want to do is to embrace it. Pilit mong tinatakasan ang isang bagay na alam mong mahirap nang tanggalin sa sistema mo. Dumadating din sa puntong suko kana pero bakit hindi ang puso? You can't do anything though it's not a hopeless nor helpless case. It's just that your feet keep on running and running only to find out you're still leading to him. And the thing you've got to do is to give in....
Minsan ang hirap talaga na kahit anong pilit mong lumayo at hindi ka sangayunan ng puso mo, babalik at babalik ka parin sa kung ano o sino ang itinitibok nito. Ano ba ang magagawa mo? Kaya mo bang magpatuloy sa pagiwas kung ito na mismo ang trumatraydor sayo?
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
She will be loved
HOPELESS ROMANTIC. I'm fond of reading romance novels; historical romances and tagalog. Sometimes reading those make me escape from the reality. REALITY... where I feel empty, yes! that's the word "EMPTY". It's a make believe though and crazy to think that I would find the real love. The one like what in those romantic novels described. BUT ALL THINGS ARE FAR FROM PERFECT. I'm not saying that I'm looking for someone perfect 'cause I'm looking for something real. My friends are telling me that I'm "choosy", may standards daw! I don't think so. It's just that I don't feel any attractions to who ever they are. Worst, the guy that I'm in love with (before!) told me the same thing, without him knowing nasakanya na lahat. All my standards are down when it comes to him but that's HISTORY. CHANGE TOPIC!
I got curious with the status of a new guy friend where he asked favor to everyone on his friends list to tell a girl that he still loves her. So, I asked him (anonymously)... "mahal mo sya?" He replied with " oo, sobrang mahal." envy much! I can feel his sincerity. I can feel he really loves her. Now I wonder how it feels to be love the way he loves her. Naiingit ako because I want to feel loved by someone I love, yung totoo... but at the same time I'm afraid... afraid to put myself in the middle of the road. Suffice to say, I'm hesitant to take what's there in front of me. Maybe that's one of the reasons why I'm keeping myself from it. I think, bihira na yung taong gusto mo would also feel the same way and with a wallflower like me (i.c. strikes again!), I always second guessing.
Maybe it's not yet time (but when? hahah...). I know that God will put everything with time, where everything would fit perfectly. And now I'm enjoying my life and pursuing my dreams. I thank God for all the blessings! :))
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